December 12 - what a day!

We are winding down at the Allen house on this Sunday night and getting ready for another week. The boys are packed and ready for school tomorrow, Ryan is ready for his birthday on Friday... and I am ready to be finished with chemotherapy!

It's very strange to think about the fact that 4 years ago on December 12 I was (unexpectedly) about to have a baby. Little Ryan, like his brother Zach, decided to join our family about a month before his due date. They are both proof that we are not always in charge of the plans - but the result is more beautiful than anything we could dream up! This year on December 12, Ryan will be having cake with his friends at daycare and I'll be having my last chemo infusion. I know that I'll be thinking of those beautiful boys & the fact that I am so blessed that God gave me the chance to be their mom. There were definitely times in my life that I didn't think that would be a possibility for me - and they are proof that this body can do something right.

People have been asking me lately if this seems to have gone by quickly - and it definitely does. December 12 is two months to the day from the first time I noticed my tumor. I cannot believe all of the things that have taken place in those two months. If I didn't already realize that I'm not in charge of the plan that my life might take, I definitely do now. I'm going to do everything that I need to do to be a healthy person and just keep praying that I'll understand what it is that's waiting for me down the road... I guess that's all that any of us can do!